Sometimes I feel as if I was the odd one out in this world, possibly ’cause I see I am completely opposite to other people. Why is it I don’t like to do…well, not exactly don’t like, simply, I get bored when I go with my friends to drink somewhere, for instance, a bar where the music is so loud that you can’t even speak with the person next to you without shouting in his ear? People love to do these things, going to a bar with loud music, or dancing someplace, where the music is so horrible you can’t even dance it… annnddddd the Dj is such a dorko, he can’t even change to somethong better… but they do it, because they’re having a good time. That’s not my case, and I would really like to know why.
I love to meet my friends, chat, and have a good time, but when we end up like these, in a disco, everyone dancing, or shouting out loud in a bar with them, I feel really out of the plan, as if I should not be there at all, as if… I was the odd one out there, and although my friends try their best to make me have some fun too, I still think I am a bother, so I end up going away, ’cause at the end, they will have much more fun together, without me there.
And as for me, although I tend to ask myself what’s wrong with this, why am I different, (because I would like to have the same fun that they have in these places together) I end up happy too, ’cause I can do now whatever I want, and they surely had a very good time there… if I had stayed, I wouldn’t have had a good time, and because of my bitterness, neither would they.
So, after all, it turns out like this… I haven’t got anything out of these lost words… I have only lost time.